Messy break-ups & transformation time.
So total honesty ... I just went through a very messy break up. I'll now be living alone; both literally and in terms of expenses and an entire 1bedroom apartment in Hollywood. It's scary, exhilarating, stressful and so SO new all at the same time.
For a girl that moved to Los Angeles with 2 suitcases, no friends no job and NO place to live, I'm 150% sure that the new chapter of my life will be a breeze and nothing that I can't handle. But escaping comfortability is newly terrifying, which I think speaks volumes on just how 'safely' I've been living my life for the past 2 years, defined by a relationship that was doing nothing but stunting my growth, my wonderment for the world and my love for life and all that it contains.
Which brings me here. I am pledging to spend 365 days romantically 'alone'. No relationships (but a girls gotta eat, so please don't judge me for the the odd and isolated restaurant date), no hook ups, no emotional bonds. 365 to re-focus on myself, my career and being the most bad ass I can possibly be. A year of TRANSFORMATION, of saying YES, of doing things that only concern me. Oh, and I'm going to blog the entire thing. EVERY DAY. I've spent the last 5 years of my life either in a relationship, breaking up or mourning a previously dead relationship and I'm done with it. Tomorrow (Day 1) I'm posting my YOLO list, my daily Wish list (to be explained) and let's get this thing started. Send me some good energy guys ... I'm going to need it! <3